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Unresolved – Part 7
Unresolved – Part 7
By Kymley
About: Kevin and Scotty
Rate: PG
Disclaimer: Not mine. Just messing with the characters if B&S
Summary: Set in the episode Resolved because they still got back together too quickly on the show so I’m filling in the gaps for myself.
Kevin was so angry, he had come in here to yell or scream or ...maybe... even reclaim what he knew was his. As angry as Kevin was at Scotty, he couldn’t help but notice the little movement that Scotty had made. Somehow this calmed Kevin down but also made him angrier at the same time.
“Are you afraid of me?” Kevin nearly yelled, he watched as Scotty tried to move back even further, he couldn’t quite believe that Scotty would actually believe that he would hit him. He remembered their conservation in his office after he had hit the man he thought slept with Scotty. He remembered that Scotty said that Kevin had wanted to hit Scotty but the thought had never occurred to Kevin. He was in too much pain to even think about it. He did now and he knew that he couldn’t touch Scotty in that way.
Scotty can see some process working inside Kevin’ head but he doesn’t know what the end result would be, did he really believe that Kevin would hit him, no he didn’t but it didn’t stop him from thinking it.
“No” Scotty said, not complete sure of himself.
“Liar” Kevin said, he could tell that Scotty wasn’t being completely truthful about the answer.
“I just...I didn’t know... what to... think or... do” Scotty said truthfully “I wouldn’t blame you if you wanted to hit me or something. I don’t think you would but it’s nothing less than... I... deserve” Scotty just manages to get the last word out, he knows he deserves a punch but no one had hit him, no one had isolated him, everyone was still talking to him, well except Kevin. He was waiting for someone to act like he deserved, a punch was what he deserved, maybe even what he wanted. He had done a terrible thing and he was waiting for the results. If at least he got a punch he knew that he’d be able to fight for Kevin but what if the result was losing Kevin completely. He could handle a few hits/punches as long as he got to keep Kevin.
Kevin did the complete opposite as what he had expected; he breathed a sigh of relief. This act alone made Scotty more confused than ever before.
Kevin couldn’t help being relieved with the fact he was right, Scotty was lying and he knew; his instincts were right which meant that he knew Scotty.
“Kev” Scotty asked nervously “You okay?” he saw something that he hadn’t seen in Kevin in a while, a small smile had reached his eyes. Kevin was trying to hide it but he couldn’t hide it from Scotty.
“Yeah” Kevin said with a long sigh “Yeah” he went over to Scotty and sat next to him, his anger was gone (at least for now) and he took Scotty’s hands in his own. Scotty nearly pulled them out of Kevin’s grasp, mostly from shock and his own habit of not touching Kevin “I know who you are” Kevin said letting the smile come out.
“Of course you do” Scotty said as if Kevin’ statement was the most stupid thing to say.
“I hadn’t felt that way” Kevin admitted slowly, deciding honest was the best policy, a bit of a cliché but still the truth.
“Really” Scotty said shocked, Kevin knew him inside out, back to front, Kevin sometimes knew Scotty better than himself and vice versa. “Why?” he knew that now that they were talking he wanted Kevin to continue; he could listen to Kevin talk for the rest of his life. That was the plan at least.
“Because I knew you were lying” Kevin confesses “at least this time” his shoulders sag downwards, a frustrated movement out of sadness.
Scotty knew what lie Kevin was talking about; how could he not, it was the only one he had and the only one that he had pretend didn’t exist as well.
Scotty tried to find the right words to describe his feelings “I think at some point it wasn’t a lie anymore, it became a distant remember, something that I pretended it didn’t exist. At some point it just didn’t matter to me anymore” Scotty could see how this information was effecting Kevin; a form of disbelief appeared on Kevin’s face, Scotty took hold of Kevin’s hand even tighter than before and he made sure they were looking directly into each other’s eyes “It is something that I’ll always regret Kevin, you have to know that” Scotty said waiting for a confirmation from Kevin “I think that had we been like we used to be you would have know, then again it wouldn’t have happened if we were what we used to be. That’s both our fault” Scotty knows that it’s true and that Kevin has excepted his responsibility in the way that they had both separated “I knew that after the Sarah and Luc thing that happened that day that I couldn’t have kept it a secret” Scotty knows that he is horrible at keeping secrets but at some point it wasn’t a secret anymore but something that was a memory, a distant one.
“But why then?” Kevin asked “Why when we were happy did you have to tell me?” he just couldn’t understand it. He still believed it was something to do with Sarah and Luc but he couldn’t quite understand it.
“Because” Scotty breathed in a long breath and then said “it wasn’t a memory anymore, all the doubt and insecurities that Sarah had with Luc, it bought it to the surface again. Sarah thought that Luc was cheating on her but I knew that I had cheated. It might have only been the one time, it might have meant nothing, it was the worst mistake of my life but I knew that it was true. That I couldn’t keep it from you now, I knew I had cheated, I had a secret again and I had my Kevin back finally” Kevin smiles at this point, he was so lost for so long that he knew Scotty was right saying that he had came back “I knew that you would look at me and know because you know me better than anyone and I love you for that” Scotty said looking at Kevin.
Kevin looked at Scotty and knew that he was telling the truth, he could trust his own instincts and maybe he could even start to trust Scotty again, maybe.
“I know you thought I would have hit you earlier” Kevin said slowly trying to explain his thought pattern “but you have to know I never would” Kevin stops Scotty from talking by putting a finger against his mouth and Scotty nods that he understands “but I think you should know that you hurt me more than any punch or kick would every hurt”.
Scotty looks away, he doesn’t know what to say, he knows that Kevin could never hurt him and that he would never hurt Kevin but he did; the emotional pain that hurts more than any physical act of violence.
He feels Kevin’ hands on his face turning his face to meet Kevin’ face and Kevin then says the only thing he could “but I still love you more than anything, you wouldn’t be able to hurt me so much if I didn’t love you so much” and then pulls Scotty towards him for a painful reuniting kiss.
It hurt Kevin because he was trying too hard originally; he let the tension release and he enjoyed his husband kissing him. Kevin grabs hold out the back of Scotty’s neck trying to pull Scotty even deeper into the kiss. He felt Scotty’s had reached up to his head; he had always enjoyed how Scotty would run his hands through Kevin’s hair.
Scotty couldn’t believe it, he was finally kissing Kevin, his husband. He couldn’t help but smile into the kiss and sigh gently. He put everything he had into the kiss; he wanted it to be perfect, he had that nervous butterfly feeling in his stomach. The type you get from finally getting a first kiss from someone you liked, excited mixed with fear. He could feel Kevin start to pull away though and he didn’t know what to do. He didn’t want it to stop so quickly though he let Kevin move backwards but kept hold of his wrists in front of him.
“Scotty” Kevin said looking at the two hands holding his wrists, refusing to let go. He was slightly nervous about it but also found it humorous as well.
“No, not yet, please” Scotty pleading, he didn’t want it to end so soon.
Kevin started to look at Scotty more serious “Scotty” he waited until his eyes opened before he said “we still need to take things slowly” as much as Kevin would like to grab hold of his husband and take him to bed, he knew that it was too soon. That brief kiss was a start but he still had this imagine of Scotty with Marcus. He just couldn’t help it but at least he could see that the imagine had faded slightly; it wasn’t as strong as the imagines he had when Scotty tried to hold his hand or touch him. It was the first time that he could see hope for them.
“Okay” Scotty said, slightly resentful but he knew that Kevin still needed time.
“What do you see when we kiss or touch” Kevin asked, he could sense the annoyance from Scotty.
“You” Scotty answered honestly and quickly and he saw Kevin’s reaction “Just you. You and me, together, past, present, future, both of us together” it was at this point when Scotty knew what Kevin was going to say.
“Well I don’t” Kevin said gently, he was glad with Scotty’s answer but he couldn’t help want he felt or saw “I see you and then I see you and him” Kevin says nearly spitting out his name “It’s not as strong as it used to be but it’s still there”.
“It’s okay” Scotty said “we’ll get there”
“We will?” Kevin asked timidly; he doesn’t have the answer but he has the hope.
“Yes we will” Scotty says confidently “I’ll wait forever” he answered genuinely and he began to smile as Kevin smiled at his answer.
They sat there together; hand held until the early hours of the morning, not wanting to let go of each others’ hand, they laid backwards across the bed and fell asleep in each others’ arms for the first time in over a month.
End of Part 7
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No way - they need to feel the pain and all the emotion - it's going to be a while still.
Now need to start on the next chapter - it caught up with me
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The beginning is powerful!
It seems so real!
The type you get from finally getting a first kiss from someone you liked, excited mixed with fear.
I love this! I love this idea of the first kiss because this is how Scotty really feels..
And then, here comes the calm!!
Finally some hope for their love...
This story is just perfect!♥♥♥
Thanks!!
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It's like the start again - particularly in the trust area but also the feelings.
What is it that they say - "the calm before the storm"
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Thanks for updating this Story Religiously i am Loving that they are Building their Relationship together with a lot of Pain and Tears.
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Trying to update every day except I don't know how long I'll keep it up. I'm sure more pain to come
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Thank you for writing it. It's really realistic and right.
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Yes, our boys are going to go through some more pain yet; it's all so sad